Well don't I feel like an ass.

For new year's my friend and I decided we'd get good and ripped and play video games all night. This we did without care or worry. We had a blast. We owned all in Call of Duty 2 on XBL, yelling at the other players even though they couldn't hear us because we weren't using headsets,and ruthlessly tearing apart Nightwish's "Wish I Had an Angel" with our tuneless vocal cords. Like I said. A blast.

So why do I feel like such an ass?

I drink seriously perhaps once or twice a year. I never do anything particularly stupid or anything, occasionally offending someone but apologising and being forgiven afterward.

So why do I feel like such an ass?
It's because I hurt the only person I never intended to. Katie. I never said anything bad to her, I never hurt her (I in fact did not see her or talk to her all evening) But I felt the need to be honest. Over the phone the next day I told her what transpired. I could tell by her silence while I was telling her what I did that she didn't approve. I wanted to take it back like I never told her because I dreaded what she would say next. Katie is like my conscience. When I'm with her I watch my language, I'm able to hold an intellegent conversation unlike when I'm with most of my other friends (this does not include Lauren or Lydia). Anyway, she said she didn't approve but that she accepted it (Ack!) and that she forgave me. I decided then and there that I would not drink I told her so and she seemed to feel better about that. But she still seems...distant ever since I told her.

Like I said, Katie is the one person on earth that I don't want to hurt. I intend to keep up my promise to her which really isn't all that hard because I'm no alcoholic. But I suppose the damage has been done. I hope she forgives me.

Yeah...I fucked up...