2112rush

D'oh!

2006-06-03T12:57:49Z

So I was just sort of sitting here this morning at about 7:30 just after I had woken up and I suddenly recalled this dream that I had last night. I was outside, under a tree I think, and there was a girl with me whose face I couldn't see. It was on a hill or something and she had her head on my chest as we looked out over the surrounding countryside. We didn't say anything to each other but I had the feeling that we didn't need to. I think that in that dream I was happier than I've been for months...But then it all just slipped away when I woke up. I'd have happily traded that world for this one. Even if the dream had gone on to have a meteor or something fall right on top of the two of us, I'd have at least died happy.

"You can't always get what you want..."

Fuck...

2006-05-18T00:54:06Z

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Fuck.

2006-05-17T23:23:50Z

Katie and I are no more.

Not that I didn't see it coming for a week or two...

Here's the cap Katie...

2006-04-15T04:45:12Z

Call me when you see this.

Bullshit.

2006-04-15T04:37:09Z

To put it lightly, I can't count the number of times my parents have forgotten to pick me up somewhere...and that's when they're sober. They're even worse about it drunk. I also can roughly estimate that in the past year, they have come home approximately 30-ish times totally shitfaced and forgotten us and dinner. This counts passing out and letting dinner burn. And that was only last year.

Anyway the point of my story is this: I was hanging out at Bunkerd89's house tonight (movies and pizza ftw) when I passed out in front of the tv because I haven't slept properly in a week. Bunkerd had already gone to his room to sleep. I was supposed pick up my brother at 11but woke up at twelve because someone was ringing their doorbell. When I got to the door there was no one there (fucking kids messing with us) but at that moment my dad pulled up. I was going to go outside and explain that I had fell asleep but when I opened their door the alarm went off. I fucking told bunkerd I had to leave and don't set the alarm. Anyway that woke his stepdad and he shut it off. My dad bitched me out before I could explain and made me come home. Now I can't sleep because I'm pissed.

So anyway in spite of everything my parents have done in the past, I fall asleep for a legitimate reason -- once -- and I get the car taken away for an indefinite amount of time. Of course if I point out all of their indescretions it'll be longer.

Fucking bullshit.

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!

2006-04-08T18:15:51Z

I swear if I have to stay cooped up for yet another day I'm going to fucking explode...

A conundrum if you will...

2006-03-26T23:05:37Z

I want to know what love means to you people....all 2 of you...

Why are the words "I love you" thrown about so much? Like it means nothing? What happened to those words being important and only saying it to a few people your entire life?

So...What does love mean, and when is it appropriate to say "I love you"? Because my own answers apparently don't mesh with society. But fuck society.

This makes me feel like throwing up.

2006-03-25T16:59:25Z

The following is the journal entry of someone I know on Red vs Blue:

"you know what? I DONT CARE!!!
what the fuck does a guy have to do to get an easy fuck around here?

god as soon as my girl leaves i got no lovin and all i want is a simple fuck

all girls that i know will fuck me want a "relationship"

why cant it be easy?

if any wemon finish reading this plaese tell me why girls cant do one night stands"

What a chauvenistic ass.

Whee, new vids

2006-03-22T05:46:21Z

The first is a vid of The Boondock Saints set to "Bodies" by Drowning Pool
http://s64.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=211Z52ZJU3Y6O0OMJEO11RP4D

The second one is Firefly/Serenity mostly centered around River and set to "The Happiest Days of Our Lives" By Pink Floyd. And YES it is supposed to cut off at the end like that. That's the way the song is. It transitions smoothly into "Another Brick in the Wall Pt 2".

http://s37.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0WN2PF8854H1V3N9DYOYLNDUJR

Plus my background is funny...and true...

:(

drool

2006-03-15T23:46:05Z

IT WILL BE MINE!

Seriously. We might get it.

Your head asplode!

2006-03-15T20:46:09Z

http://s54.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=043X3ELIR6Q1J1YQKUUHMDSD3T

2112rush @ 2006-03-13T21:14:00

2006-03-14T02:14:33Z

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I’m bored. 100 questions won’t keep me occupied long but…

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN A RING?
No

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
almost four months

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
Pluto plushy from Katie when she went to Disney.

4. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU DROPPED YOUR CELL?
Waaaay more than I should have.. You know what? I’m just going to leave your answer here.

5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
This morning. *flexes* I’m dead sexy…
6 WHAT DO YOU SPEND THE MOST MONEY ON?
Friends and then myself. That sounds less selfish than your answer but it’s not. I do it because I like making people happy.
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
Pizza…as usual.

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Boobs. Uh….I mean eyes. You can learn a lot about a girl through their eyes.

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG:
Oh damn….All time favorite? Probably Tom Sawyer by Rush. My current favorite? Panic Attack by Dream Theater.

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
Nashua, New Hampshire, U.S, the Universe
Yeah I’ll just leave this answer.
11. WHERE DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL?
Nashua High South DUH.

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER?
Verizon

14. LONGEST JOB HELD:
2 months.

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
*Checks between own legs* Yep. Still got em..

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?
Nah. That’s boring.
17. LAST WEDDING ATTENDED?
Pfft…how the hell should I know? That shit’s boring.
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY?
Shamey.

19. LAST TIME YOU ATTENDED CHURCH?
2 weeks ago.

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT?
Wendy's, hands-down DAMN STRAIGHT

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE HEARD?
"I love you" <<<NONE OF THAT!
Mine? Hm…”I’m fine” So many people tell me that.

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
Wendy's/ the mall food court Gonna have to go with yours.

24. CAN YOU COOK?
Yepper.

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?
Whatever the hell I can get my hands on.

26. BEST KISSER?
Don’t have a wide enough selection to choose from.

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Hm…at my counselor’s?

28. MOST DISLIKED FOOD?
Cabbage <<< Gonna have to go with that.

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?
I'm too vulnerable and naive <<< Don’t be so hard on yourself!
Mine? I want to help people more than I want to help myself. The result is that I let my grades and social life suffer while I help people to the best of my ability. When I fail, I become depressed and feel powerless.

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?
6 Hours. Outside. Shoveling dirt. It ws 95 degrees out. *passes out from just remembering it*

33. FAVORITE MOVIE(S)?
What's Eating Gilbert Grape <<<what’s eating who? I’ve never even heard of it from anyone besides you! Mine’s the LotR trilogy.

34. CAN YOU SING?
In my mind.

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
Bela Fleck. I’m going to see Dream Theater on March 30th I want to get my new Octavarium CD signed by them.
36. WHERE DID YOU GO?
Lowell Theatre.

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED?
Damn…uh…Leon: The Professional I think.

38. THINGS YOU NEVER LEAVE HOME WITHOUT?
my cell phone, and my sparkling wit!! hehe.. see? <*cringe*
I never leave without my iPod and a lighter and some sort of knife. I’m weird.

39. FAVORITE PLACE TO VACATION?
A remote place 30 miles from civilization.

40. DO YOU LIKE CHINESE FOOD?
Some of it.

41. HOW BIG IS YOUR BED?
Hm…kinky question! Alas, only a twin.

42. IS YOUR ROOM CLEAN?
Pfft…HELL NO! I almost died trying to get from my bedroom door to the computer chair!

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER? DOES IT WORK?
Desktop. Hell yes it works!
44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?
Hard…I’m gonna have to go with Carlos Mencia.

45. DO YOU SMOKE?
Nope

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES ON?
Depends on who’s with me. Uh, I mean, with.

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?
The dog. And someone from my harem It gets pretty crowded.

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?
I wouldn’t know.

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
Never.

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
Pancakes.
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
Lots of cream or milk and half a bag of sugar.

52. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
scrambled

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?
Heh. No.

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
An Indian telemarketer. Or at least I THINK she was a telemarketer. She was too difficult to understand.

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?
My grand mother. She only freaking calls every five minutes.

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?
”already did” (in answer to “put on some lingere” ok not really but…)
57. MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING?
BK Lounge, baby <<<Ditto.

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?
Two. I’m not gay or married.

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
<.<
>.>
Underwear and bathrobe. That turn you on? Dirty minded girl!

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC OR ANY SONG?
Preparing for her flight
I held with all my might
Fearing my deepest fright
She walked into the night
She turned for one last look
She looked me in the eye
I said, "I Love You...
Good-bye"
(Dream Theater – A change of seasons)
I tear up every time I hear that. If I’m particularly depressed, I cry. I’m so pathetic.

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J SANDWICH?
Raspberry also.

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?
I guess, but I usually impale something with the pool.. stick.. thingy...<<feeling a bit murderous?
I can’t really. I guess I could kill zombies with the cue though.

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO SWIM?
Yepper

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Strawberry<<pfft.
Chocolate Chip.

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
Sure…why not?

66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF?
I'm 5 feet 10 inches <<<I didn’t know they stacked shit that high! (j/k)
Uh…something about me…ah, got it. Besides with Katie the only place I’d like to be is hiking some mountain somewhere.

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?
HELL NO

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
Summer/Spring.

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?
About 3 seconds ago...<<< me too. Upon retrospect, that commercial wasn’t funny at all.

WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?
6:30

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?
Everything is clean and virgin. It’s like popping nature’s cherry every time you step in a new spot…god that was dirty.
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?
Never, yet<<ditto

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?
Murry <<< Lol, unintentional stargate reference. Mine would be tigger.

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?
Ummm..? Arr, matey!! hehe <<<????
Cool. Very cool.
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?
*sigh* more bordem. Besides Katie all my friends have been basically ditching me.
79. WHAT IS THE THIRD LETTER OF YOUR NAME?
e

80. HOW OLD ARE YOUR PETS?
5 and 3…I think.

82. ARE YOU SICK?
In the head? Yes.

83. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL?
Yepper.

84. IS THE BATHROOM OPEN?
eh?
85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?
Nope

86. ARE YOU WATCHING MTV?
Fuck no.

87. ARE YOU SMILING?
ATM? No. but jack is funny. I’m sure I’ll laugh soon.
88. DO YOU HAVE ON EYELINER?
Heh. No.

90. ARE YOU BLONDE?
Nope

91. Who is your crush?
Katie. (don’t tell her!)

92. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
I’ve got to say that Damocles is a badass name.

93. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?
I swim in the nude. (ok, no, but admit it, you think the idea is hot.)

94. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?
No, September<<<ditto

95. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?
Nope Katie did though. I was bored.
96. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?
Nope

97. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
Does Thomas count? Sometimes I think he does.

98. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?
We’re too poor for an “upstairs”

99. ARE YOU BORED?
Yes

100. DO YOU NEED A NAP?
Nope. I need an extended sleep. Like 10 or 12 hours.

Because Lydia asked.

2006-03-09T19:32:45Z

My AIM screenname is spasyyz. (It was in my userinfo the whole time btw) I'm usually on so anyone can drop me a line even if my away message is up. I'll get back to you as soon as I get the message.

Hello? Is there anybody in there?

2006-03-07T19:37:10Z

Just nod if you can hear me. Is there anyone at home?

insert sweet bass solo here

2006-03-02T18:08:23Z

Judging by the lack of journals and comments, I'm forced to conclude that I'm the only person without a life this week.

That makes me sad...ish. In a way it makes my life easier that i'm not running around.

Questionable Content (the webcomic. there's nothing nasty in my journal)

2006-02-27T23:53:35Z

I feel his pain...

Wrong, but funny.

Plus I like making fun of n00bs.

Shit...Can you see the pics? I could a moment ago but now I can't...goddammit.

@#$^$@#$#@!@!

2006-02-26T23:06:22Z

FUCK SHIT.

Fuck the wold. Seriously. This is going to be the worst goddamned fucking week in my entire fucking life. Godfuckingdammit...

Going along with my last journal...

2006-02-23T20:40:48Z

Who wants to hang out this week?

She's leaving on a jetplane...

2006-02-23T03:03:15Z

Katie that is. She's going on vacation to Florida for 9 days starting tomorrow. It's going to be pretty boring/depressing without her...

On the bright(ish) side, I won't have to shave till a week from Saturday...

Someone get me out of here.

2006-02-13T02:00:53Z

I'm sitting at my computer eating pizza. There's thawed meat meant for dinner rotting on the counter. My dad is in bed my mom is downstairs watching tv and I can hear her trying to talk to the dog.

All the earmarks of my parents coming home drunk. Again.

As if my dad falling over on the way into the house wasn't enough proof.

I just want to leave. Fuck my parents

Katie: I was telling the truth. I AM ashamed of them. And at the moment I'm missing you a great deal more than usual.

Someone just get me the fuck out.

Hm...

2006-02-11T16:58:11Z

Mabye I'll have a sexy scar on my forehead now...

"How'd you get that?"
"Oh...you know...shrapnel burst...I don't really like to talk about it"
*insert pity sex here*

Ok, yeah, I'm joking about the last part. But I'm still hoping for the sexy scar.

I'm still here!

2006-02-09T22:22:46Z

Where is everyone? Anyway, like my new avvy? I think its...*cringe* pretty.

Roll the Bones

2006-02-08T20:28:16Z

http://s49.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=07IUN64NZG8310GUU722ECCX58

FINISHED!

2006-02-06T23:50:14Z

http://s56.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3GG70RAF8QGUZ3F8FK30QOLYMX

The above is my first-ever music video. Enjoy kids!

Why you shouldn't play with BB guns:

2006-02-05T03:16:49Z

So we were playing airsoft but we were one gun short but my brother had a BB gun that (against my better judgement) I allowed one of my friends to use. This is the result: